All you need to know!

Here you can get caught up on how I got to this point in my life. It won't be short, nor very sweet but it is me. I'll always be 100% real with you, no sugar coating here. So take a seat and enjoy the show:


I suppose my story starts when boy meets girl. Isn't that usually how it goes? I met "The Sperm Donor" [aka SD] in October of '08. I attended his going away party with a guy I had just started seeing. SD was heading back to the sandbox for his third tour. He was the life of the party, looking for a laugh. He was dating a girl whom worked in the same building as I, just not at the same venue. Not long after he deployed rumors flew around work that his girlfriend was cheating. I talked to him online a bit just trying to be a friend to him, I figured he could use one given all he had been through. They split obviously. A couple months later the guy I was dating and I also split. So is the story of two lonely hearts looking for love in all of the wrong places. I told him I'd wait to date until he was home and we could go on a date. I figured if I wanted a shot I had to prove I wasn't like her. So wait I did. I stayed home a lot and we spent hours talking on the phone and on the webcam. I was a naive girl waiting for her hero.
I found out I was pregnant in November of '09. Once upon a time we wanted kids. By this point we didn't even want to be together let alone be parents together! The fighting was out of control. But this baby was coming into this world no matter what. We were still in an LDR as he was stationed at Riley until Feb of '10. Needless to say we tried to make it work for the baby.
In Feb of '10 I flew down to Kansas to drive with him back home. It was really our last shot at making this work. The weekend was great....but as soon as we hit the Minnesota border I knew what was in store, I cried for miles. Guess what? We got back home, he drank more than I had hoped, we fought and that was pretty much the end. Yeah we stuck it out longer, for the baby. But at that point we gave up on each other.

He moved out a week before I gave birth to our son.

I gave birth to the most amazing 7 lb 13 oz baby boy on July 5th 2010 after 24 hours of labor. Yes I had my parents, grandma and sisters there....but I've NEVER felt so alone. He made me do that without him and for that I have not forgiven him but I'm working damn hard at it.

Since then we have been to court. He only asked for one 8 hour day a week with our son. He hasn't been a big part in the baby's life at all. But that is his choice. My son is my life. And that is all that matters.

I found a great relationship with God recently. I also lost my best friend in the world, my grandma, on Sept 28th. I'll never be the same without her. Next to my son, she was my everything.

I have amazing friends and family to support me. I have also started dating a wonderful man who is just amazing with my son.

That is how I got here!