Wonder Wednesday

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Well I'm linking this blog to it's first blog hop ever!

A little about me:

*I've had a few other blogs but with each chapter in my life I've found I need a new one!

*I work at a school in the infant room and currently am going to school to get my AA in Early Childhood Ed

*My son [Wee Man] and my boyfriend [My Love] are what my life revolve around.

*I love love love photo editing and try and display some of my work here.

*I proudly support the military.

*I love to read.

*God is my homeboy :)

*My son has three parents. My boyfriend and I co-parent with Wee Man's father.

Take a look around, there is plenty more of me everywhere you look!

Whew

Well here I am again finally. Wee Man and I made our big move. Life is amazing with only a few stresses here and there. Money is still something I can't seem to get a handle on. But in two weeks I should know exactly what my income will be every two weeks. It's tough to do job changes because the income is so up and down. But once we make it through this month life should be at it's new normal.
We are still in boxes around here but slowly I am getting unpacked. I look forward to actually decorating!! Wee Man had a bit of a tough time adjusting and he's still out of sorts because of all the boxes I think. So tonight I have to work hard at getting fully unpacked.
School started! I'm actually enjoying it. It's a lot to take on but so far I think I'm handling it. My Love has been my biggest supporter. I truly don't know where this little family would be without him. I'm sure I frustrate him to no end at times but he sticks it out and helps in so many ways. Wee Man has been a mommy's boy since we moved but slowly I think he's coming around. I look forward to one month from now when this is all just second nature to us.
Well that's all for now, I hope to have something more witty or profound soon :)

The Good News

I never posted about the really big amazing good news! I have a full time, Monday-Friday 9-5 job! I am a teacher's aid at a school/daycare center. No words will ever explain how amazing this is. I drop off Wee Man at the SAME TIME every day and pick him up at the same time EVERY DAY! I have EVERY weekend off, I have EVERY major holiday off, I will have PTO AND VACATION time!!!! I don't make a million dollars, I make the same as my last job but the benefits are amazing. Just thinking about how much I love my job makes me tear up. I ENJOY going to work everyday. I love all of the babies (10 weeks to 9 months)however, I do wish Wee Man could come with. I hold out hope that someday he may be able to!!

I start school April 4th and I will be moving (cross my fingers) the second weekend in April to New Brighton! I will be a city girl (okay okay, a country girl living in the city).

So today I count my blessing; *One perfectly amazing son*One handsome amazing boyfriend*One perfect job*One (half alive) car*A BIG wonderful family*A new beginning*A bestie that no words can explain <3*Amazing friends*(almost)Guilt free adult time=PRICELESS!!

God has taught me that sometimes icky things happen so that AMAZING things can come of it. Some icky things teach us lessons while others are there to open a new door in life. I see the road ahead will be full of bumps and bruises but I have the strength to take it all on; with my amazing God and my amazing support group.

Half a Step Forward...

...and ten steps back. That is how I feel my life is. I feel like I can be great one second and sitting back in my black hole the next. I just had a whole arm load of amazing things dropped into my lap recently, you'd think I'd be on cloud nine! I have the best family in the world, Wee Man and My Love are my entire world. Add in a TERRIFIC job, school starting soon, a roof over my head (possibly a move in the near future) and a car (knock on wood, is still running)....what more could a person ask for? I think I'm finding things to have drama about. I feel like once my life gets calm and happy I find things to be angry and freak over. That isn't right. I'm just unsure how to change it. The issue tonight is an issue, however I think I'm allowing myself to be more overtaken by it than is called for. Same with my tiffs with My Love. Yes, what I'm upset about is an issue but is it THAT big of an issue? Probably not to normal people, no. I guess I need to get back on a regular schedule with K and possibly look into a little bit extra help. Bah. I thought maybe this was just seasonal.

Not Good Enough?

Today I am blogging because something was brought to my attention and it has me irrate!

I have two baby sisters; A soon-to-be 9 year old and a soon-to-be 6 year old. The nine year old is like looking in a mirror. She's a bit bossy, believes everything is either black or white and she will tell you if something isn't fair. She tends to be an over achiever and catches on quickly.
The six year old is a world all her own. No words can describe her. She is our giggle in the midst of tears. Our rainbow after a storm. One glance over her glasses at you and she'll melt your heart. She always wants happiness and peace.
These girls are attending the same school I grew up in and something has disturbed me deeply. At six years old my sister is building her foundation for growing up. The things she is told and taught now will mold how she perceives herself and the world around her. My sweet little sister is already building a foundation on "I'm not good enough". I refuse to sit back and allow another generation of my family to feel 'not good enough'.
There is a board in my sister's kindergarten class that holds papers. These papers are written neat enough to get on the board as well as get a piece of candy. My sister sits and writes and rewrites her papers to the point that she is missing out on play time because she wants nothing more than to get on the board; She has yet to make it up there. In turn that teacher is telling that sweet little girl that she is not good enough to be on the board. She is doing her best and working very hard, yet it is still not good enough. Please someone, tell how that is teaching this girl?! The anger this brings up in me is beyond words. I have many other gripes about this school and this one takes the cake. Instead of rewarding hard work or giving extra help, they are building a bad foundation. Each and every person writes differently. Nothing can change that. My handwriting sometimes isn't the best either but guess what......we use a computer for EVERYTHING! So, who cares?
I begin my teaching career tomorrow as a teachers aide. I pray to God I never do this to any other child. And I ask God for strength to keep my cool but find a solution to this problem for my sister.

Grace

I'm full of serious things I'd love to blog about but I'm just unsure how to go about it. This blog has been much more serious than any of my last ones. I try to keep complaining out as well as focusing on other people hurt me. In fact this blog has been a lot about Faith and God. So today I guess I'm here to blog about Grace. K has me researching Grace and what it means in my life and frankly I feel a bit...stuck. From what I can tell Grace is not something we have earned, God has simply given it to us. Hmmmm. Most of my findings are very over my head. I am still new to this "religious world". I have always believed in God and have always had Faith. Yet, no one has ever really explained the basics to me. I have a vague idea of Adam and Eve, I believe Noah built the Ark....beyond that I'm a bit "in the dark". Go into the whole 'God', 'Jesus' and 'Holy Spirit' all being one and well frankly......you'll have me so kurbobbled I'll feel ill. To me, my Faith is quite simple, God is The Creator. Jesus was His son and died on the cross for our sins. God loves us all and wants the very best for us even if he can't prevent all bad from ever happening. Good people go to Heaven, bad people go to Hell. God is my friend, quite honestly. I talk to him. I don't pray in the 'normal' sense. I drive in my car and I talk to him (sometimes it may be a bit more on the yelling side). So you throw words at me like Grace and well....I feel that kurbobbled feeling coming on! So in my simple world, Grace means; An unearned love and well wishing from God. God has shown me so very very much Grace, even when I felt my world was crumbling. God has been great to me. I'm not saying my life went along with no trials or tribulations; I'm saying God has shown me after I have overcome them....why I had to deal with them. So in my world Grace is prevalent and an amazing thing!

So many things...

I have been gone awhile due to my mood being a bit blue. Slowly I am beginning to feel better as the sun starts to shine and the days are getting longer. I am so thankful to have My Love and Wee Man to stick by me when I'm not at my best. We are the perfect little family. Wee Man and I met My Love's mom about a week ago. It was a nice lunch and it seemed to go well. I'm glad we finally got together with her.
Today what got me blogging wasn't to chit chat about my life or how I've been feeling. I read a little story today that reminded me that someday, My Love and I may have to explain deployment to Wee Man. Wow. I'm not really worried about it as it's all just thoughts, there are no plans for a deployment soon that I know of. I just never thought about exactly how difficult explaining that to a child must be. Wee Man is crazy about My Love. They are two peas in a pod. And how difficult it must be for parents to leave knowing how much kids change in the course of 9-14 months. I just never really truly sat and thought about that before reading that story.
But anyway, life here is changing and hopefully settling down by April. School starts soon, hopefully moving soon and then life can settle into a new normal.